I'm 26 years old with 2 children. My parents passed when I was 12 ever since I haven't had any adult figures worth while in my life. Being parentless is the hardest thing to cope with, what I would do for parent like people to fufill my life. I'm told every hardship makes you stronger but after awhile it counter acts and just makes me more emotional and depressed.
Do you have any parental figures in your life, I don't have the greatest relationship with my parents and while I understand death is a world of difference, having people in my life to whom I look towards for advice and encouragement is key for my own emotional well being. I get some of that actually from the site. Hugs!