Here we going again - I'd already typed what I wanted to say then lost it before posting . . . so here goes again.
I'd been addicted and abusing ritalin for two years when I finally asked for help, hoping to get admitted into hospital or rehab, instead I was given a case worker who phoned me at home every afternoon to see how I was going.
After 3 weeks of hard going, by myself, I finally felt I was free and vowed I'd never ever touch it again.
However about a month ago, I couldn't stop thinking about it, and the more I did the more I wanted it, and the more I tried to fight it, the worse it got.
So finally I called my old docter a couple of days ago, who lives in my old town hoping he'd say he couldn't write me a script. But not only did he say no problems but added a repeat and faxed it to the pharmacy in the town I'm in now so I could have it straight away.
So as you may have already guessed I've been on a binge ever since and now don't know how to stop.
Going to post this before I lose it, might add more later.
Try to see again a medical doctor at some other clinic and be very clear about that you need help.Maybe someone can recommend a good doctor, this way you will not be alone to deal with this process. God bless you.
Actually what the doctor has done is illegal, at least in my state. Here, schedule II drugs cannot be phoned or faxed in. The actual prescription must be taken in to the pharmacy and refills are not allowed. You must get a new script each month.
Have you tried NA or any such thing?
You are in my thoughts. You dont have to live this way.
Thanks for your post. I live in Australia, and we can get up to 5 repeats with a script of ritalin here. Crazy eh.
I'm doing quite well actually. My daughter is coming up to visit tomorrow to stay for a couple of weeks, and for the past 2 days I've been weening myself down.
I've only had 2, 10gm tabs today, and am just about to have my third, but that will be it today.
I feel I can do it now that I know I'm not alone.
Even though I probably wont get on this site for awhile, until my daughter goes home, I feel with the support of the people here, just knowing your here, will help me through.
So thanks.
PS: if you get on tonight, just wondering what 'NA' is?
Thanks for asking I am doing better today, my daughter is here and I live in a motorhome, so it's totally impossible to abuse with her here as It's only one room. So this is the best thing that could have happened.
My daughter has been here for a week as of tomorrow and I've been snorting ritalin the entire time.
It's been so easy, while she's watching tv or up in her bed I just crush them up and she doesn't even notice.
Because no one would ever expect me of all people to have a drug problem, considering I've quit smoking and drinking ages ago, they wouldn't even think about it.
No one in my family even knows I'm on the drug anyway.
Anyhow, I'm just about out now anyway, and so this is it.
I've probably got enough left for a couple of days, then I am determined to never tempt myself to get any more.
It's the worse drug I've ever been prescribed and I can't believe they give this **** to kids with ADHD, no wonder they end up with drug problems later in life.
Anyway, just thought I'd update my NON progress, and just let you know I'm well aware of what I'm doing, and I am aware that it's bad and I am determined to not get anymore once this lot has run out. I tried to stop, but with it still in the cupboard calling to me, it was impossible.
how can you tell if you are addicted to xanax, I feel that I need them to help with this terrible anxiety....I take one half of .25 four times a day....if i don't take it I start shaking and feel like i'm going to fly off somewhere...I also have restless leg and I think that is part of the shaking....I'm 73 and I need these drugs to help with the pain and anxiety....why should I suffer when there are drugs to help????