im alone for two weeks and i dont know what to do i cant stand to be alone its already been 4 days and im just not coping well im crying and my thoughts stray to my fiance not wanting me not loving me i want to disappear but i cant i just i dont know what to do to fight the lonliness im keeping busy and talking to people but im still losing it and falling apart
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I am going through the same type of situation. I feel the same way you do. Everyday is a struggle and im sad all the time. I'm told it will get better but it doesn't feel that way. Hang in there
MissAmy, I know the forum doesn't replace live human companionship, but you're not alone here. I'm sorry you're feeling alone, but trying to keep busy is a good thing. I know it can be tough to do the things that help because at the time they just don't feel like they're helping - believe me, I understand that feeling. *hug*
thanks guys i hold out for the hope of talking to him in the evening but he can barely talk during the day cause hes doing military stuff its haerder then i ever imagined and each days seems to get worse instead of better i never stay alone ever i always have some one but not this time my support system seems to be falling apart at the seams i have two kids and though they are here this week next week they are with theyre dad im scared what ill do with them not here
You know I always have support for you miss Amy. Try to keep you never alone.
If you ever want to talk sweety Im here. I just went off on my husband tonight for threatening to tell my parents about my cutting. He didn't say it bc of concern, but bc he didn't like me saying I was gonna go off on one of his loser friends for always asking to borrow money and generally being a low life drug addict so...lol...at least your guy isnt mad at you! And NO he isn't. You didn't do anything wrong. Mines gonna be pissed when he sees I threw his boot and cracked the drywall! Oh well. He should feel lucky I didn't throw it at his head :) Jk!
thank you i know he isnt mad though i feel like im being punished for what i dont know the days are long ive resisted cutting and doing anything else stupid so far mainly for my kids sake i keep hoping that when they are gone i can just sleep though the days im glad i have dogs as well they keep me safe at night the nights are so long i dont sleep making me more vurnable during the day to unwanted thoughts i keep hoping itll get better its just not
Your a sweetheart KchuckS :)
You will get through this babe. I know it feels like the end of the world, but its not sweetheart. When things go wrong I ALWAYS react like its the end of the world, but you know what? It always turns out okay...sooner or later. I thought I would die when my ex kicked me out, I admitted myself to the hospital and stayed for a week. But six months later I met my husband...we had a baby and he is the love of my life. I know he will never give up on me...he loves me enough and is strong enough to deal with my mental health problems. Have faith my dear.
Do something simple but different. Take a bath. Paint your nails. Go for a walk. Think about the billons of people on the planet. It's about perspectives. You are like a star, it seems from where your at you're hundreds and Thousands of miles away from anything else, but from the surface of earth a kid would see you as part of something, and you are.
it does feel like my entire world is crashing down on me all at once . hes been my pillar of strength since my ex kicked me out a year and a half ago with him gone theres no purpose i dont see how i can keep on going at this rate its so hard . i dont like other people im afraid to leave my house that often . i take bathes sit in the yard im trying
I have a theripist and meds they only do so much
i do that too i text people i talk to people but its not the same as him being gone i heard anything for 12 hours its killing me
yes ive always had some one no matter what the price with me but im a better person now
You'll get through it. I forced myself to talk to as many new people as i could in a month. I felt like a buffoon, but it worked and even though I'm still nervous sometimes, im better overall.