I’m at a loss at what to do at this point.
I’m towards the very end of my divorce process and now I’m not only feeling, but being threatened, again. Bear with me, as I’m attempting to make this post as short as I possibly can.
I dealt with tons of mental abuse from my soon-to-be ex-husband. After many years of abuse, I decided to call it quits for good and my mom suggested that my daughter & I come and live with her and my step dad.
I am disabled, so driving is not an option for me, and it never has been, as I am unable to obtain a license. My mom lives in an extremely rural area, I don’t have a job and ride shares aren’t available.
These key points are an important part to my story.
I thought that I was saved, as I already know by now that my own dad has even told others that he was glad that my mom took me in because him and my step mom most certainly wouldn’t have. I’ve attempted living with other family members, but without financial help going through this divorce and letting me vent there was no way of that working, so to my mom’s house I went.
Well, now it’s reaching towards the end and my mom has decided to treat me the very same way that my soon-to-be ex-husband did, as every single time I’m around my mom I have to constantly get beat down with the most awful things that I can’t ever imagine telling to my own child. I am not allowed to be myself in this home because one slip up of attitude or not feeling well and I for a fact will be threatened with not having a place to stay. To make matters worse, while the beat down is going on my mom loves to throw in there that I have nobody else who will help me and specifically that my own dad won’t help, as if I haven’t heard it a million times before.
I just not only worry about my future, but my daughter’s future as I already know that she will already be having a tough time when visiting her dad due to that entire situation being completely messed up, her being at such a young age of misunderstanding things, my mom completely shutting me down in front of her and me having no choice but to let her walk all over me because she is letting us live in her home and the only one who is willing to help me, especially financially, my step dad being completely impossible to even be in the same room with, as I’m always having to warn my daughter a head of time that “papa might be angry” and that she has to be silent and not make any noise if we leave our room, me not being a good example of being a working mom because I literally can’t have a job at the moment, etc.
I just feel at a complete loss and just wish that I had somebody to talk to about things that won’t judge my situation and just tell me to leave, because it is pretty obvious that I don’t need to hear that.