I'm honestly having this problem where I feel like my self harm is lesser since my self harm isn't as deep as I like. It just seems superficial and I have this need to just do actual damage. I wish I didn't think this to be honest. I just can't help it.
Please don't hurt yourself more. I can understand those feelings. But please be careful of yourself. Have you tried anything to help find other ways of coping than the self harm?