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What's my title? I'm a porn addict. I've never said it out loud, and this is the first time I've ever written it out. This past January, I was called to go into ministry, and God has helped me through my smoking addiction and depression. I quit smoking before I quit watching porn. That's shameful... Anyway, I'm not sure what caused my problem or why I even have it. Before I got saved, I was no stranger to porn, but it wasn't anywhere near a nightly, or even weekly thing. And now, it's every night, or any time I can be alone in my bed.

I was raped nine days before Christmas. Watching porn should disgust me. And truly, it does. Not long after it happened, maybe a month, I tried masturbating. I wanted to see if I could do it, and I couldn't. I had to stop. Then I tried facing my fear and watching some basic porn. Then it got more advanced. I got comfortable with it, and now, I like it too much. No use in lying to others just like me. I like it. But what I don't like is the shame and the guilt I feel when I choose this sin over Christ.

I'm trying to be strong. Until I either meet someone else like me, or someone tells me I'm having normal reactions, I'm on a whim of hope.

There is an army of people like you. And I am one of them. I am part of a 12 step group. To go into a room with humility,willingness, & risking vulnerability. Slowly I have recovered. The addiction feeds on shame. And it is of the toxic variety. When I have acted out with porn, it was like I had to be someone else, the shame was to great for me to be real. And my ability to relate to another human being was smashed to pieces. The images. The images take I long time to leave. I don't know anyone that was able to lick this addiction alone. You are welcome to try. Maybe you will be the first.

i cant balive i have found someone similer to me (only i was never raped, i am sorry to hear that). I am a christian and i too am battling porn. its hard and i keep failing to stop, i have been fighting this for years but i feel like a cant do this alone, i wouldnt suggest u mastubate espesially becuase of the porn problem, i got addicted to both. its so hard to stop, i feel hopeless sometimes. but i am kinda happy i found someone atlest somewhat similar to me, i will have u in my prayers, and hope we can help each other.

Zack, I'm glad to see another Christian struggling with this. I mean, I wish you and I both didn't have the problem, but since we do, I'm glad we could meet. What verses have helped you most? How are you doing now?

im glad i met you too. Honestly I don’t read the bible much. I know I should and im going to more often, and i need to pray more aswell, but right now I don’t know many verses. I like the verse you put up I read it and thought about it. I went looking around in my bible and found in Ephesians 6:10-18 is also very good. I know I need to get closer to God and I know he can help. I guess I sort of didn’t take care of myself and fell into that temptation of pornography. I don’t even like it any more, it seems like my body just wants it, I can last for about a week or two but then the thoughts and urges come back. Im trying very hard, I am so glad I could find someone to talk to now. I trust my friends and my brother but I just can’t think about telling them about this. I guess im kinda ashamed. I also have a problem with masturbation, and I found a verse in the bible right now (1 Corinthians 6: 18-20) our body is the temple of the lord so if we want to live with him within us we need to fight temptation…Even knowing all this I find it hard to stop, that irks me more. To know that I am doing wrong and cant stop. i cant lie, i haven’t been doing to well lately neither, temptation have been attacking me hard. So that’s me right now, how about u? how have u been doing?

I'm doing fairly well. I've had one slip-up in about a week and a half. But that verse you mentioned, "Your body is a temple; therefore, honor God with your bodies," has really moved me to take better care of myself. I think of the body as a tool out on loan, and I want to be able to present it to Christ when the time comes, hopefully, in at least decent shape. I have a weight problem, too, but I'm trying to fix one thing at a time and let God heal the rest.

Shame is something I struggle with HORRIBLY so. I knew what I was doing was a spiritual problem, but it took a turn when it affected my ability to function. I tried to watch porn and masturbate while my son was asleep. When he woke up, I distracted him with a cartoon and I left him alone while I finished what I was doing. I wanted to puke, realizing what I had done. I haven't done that before or since then, but this has to stop, for God and for my son. If sin separates us from God, I don't want any part of it. I always pray for forgiveness, and I know that's granted. But I have a harder time forgiving myself.

Nights are the worst. I lay in bed, and I keep my phone right next to me so I can answer if someone needs me. It's in my job description... But who knew mobile porn was so easily accessible? I wish I'd never found out...

im glad that verse could help out a little.
i completly agree with you, shame is horrible and i too struggle with it. you are not alone with that one, i understand that feeling. also the shame dosent really leave sometimes, i sometimes go trough the day tinking about what i have done and how i have failed AGAIN, and it affects my life style. Nights can be really tough, sometimes it seems the night last forever and you cant even fall asleep. i dont really know yet, because i struggle with nights to, but the only thing i can say for now is to pray, i honestly dont know what else to do. i try to distract my self to the max, reading a book, watching tv, for now thats my only solution. I know what you meen about the mobile porn. i have an ipod and i have before watched porn on it. I dont like it at all.....makes me want to toss it out the window, its really bad so i try to stay off of it as much as i can. but for you its a diffrent story, u need your phone for work so that makes it harder...
I know you know that your son is a blessing from God. so not only you have to win this for yourself but for your child as well. Also i've got you in my prayers as well, you are no longer fighting this alone. I will try to give you the best advice i possibly can, in order to help you in this tough times. when every you need me i am here to help you. I have been feeling better since i meet you. i feel as though i can get threw this now that i have someone to talk to, and knows what i am feeling. i hope you could feel the same way,

hello guys am joy and I'm a sex addict and i dont know how to fix that problem cuz when i woke up first thing i think about is sex and i spend all my money , my sallery just for sex and masturbation but what make me crazy that everytime i masturbat or have sex with prostitut after i done i feel shame and guilty
and sad cuz i cant change my self and this problem turn my life like hell i try so many times but cant do it :( and what make it worse i`m from kuwait arab country and i cant get marry cuz its expensive in same time there is no prostitution in kuwait so every months i travel to feed my Addiction
when i come back to kuwait my life turn to hell its like a circle i cant go out side it :(

and sorry for my bad english language :)

Romans 8:35 Who will separate us from the love of Christ ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword ? 36 Just as it is written, "FOR YOUR SAKE WE ARE BEING PUT TO DEATH ALL DAY WE WERE CONSIDERED AS SHEEP TO BE SLAUGHTERED." 37 But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

I see all kinds of struggles and advice ..but...where is the scripture??? Read Romans 8, the whole chapter. 8:1 Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.

The devil is just hoping you will believe his lies and curse GOD and die. Same game he's been playin since sin entered this world.

The joy of the LORD is my strength!

Hi guys,

Sexual addiction and/or porn addiction is actually quite common among Christians. And there is an excellent resource out there that works specifically with folks in the church who are in this situation. The Rev. Dr. Mark Laaser is an ordained Protestant minister, and also a licensed clinical psychologist. He and his wife, Debbie, run a ministry, Faithful and True Ministries (www.faithandtrueministries.com) that works specifically with sex addicts within the church setting. Mark has been working in this field since the early 1980's, and he's spent a lot of time partnering with Dr. Patrick J. Carnes, author of "Out of the Shadows: Understanding Sexual Addiction" and about a dozen other books on various aspects of this disease. Mark and Debbie have both written several books on sexual addiction and codependency from a Christian perspective, and you can look over what they have available in their bookstore which is on their website.

Mark has a newsletter you might want to subscribe to (it's FREE). That way, you will be kept informed of the latest events Mark and Debbie will be involved in. This will include workshops, webinars, and conferences. They always have something going on. This would be a great place to begin your recovery program.

There are tons of other resources out there for the recovering sex addict. Rather than going through them all with you, I'm going to give you three "mega-websites" that contain all of these resources, along with contact information. There's a LOT of information on each of these websites, so please, take your time reviewing each site so that you don't accidentally miss something. You might want to pay particular attention to the Twelve Step groups and the information concerning therapists since these two resources play a very important role in most addict's recovery programs. The websites are as follows:

Sex Help
www.sexhelp.com

Society for the Advancement of Sexual Health
www.sash.net/

Sexual Recovery Institute
www.sexualrecovery.com

This information should be enough to get you all started on a recovery program of your own. I wish you the best of luck in your recovery efforts. If you have any questions, or if I may be of any further assistance, please let me know. I'm always happy to help in any way I can. Take care. I'll talk with you all later.