I'm just so paranoid that I'm gay. I know that sounds sooo s

Mental Health Anxiety & Panic Disorders
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I'm just so paranoid that I'm gay. I know that sounds sooo stupid and there's no reason that I should be scared or whatever but I just don't want to be gay. But I've thought myself to death so now it's in my brain that I am gay. I don't get butterflies at all around guys anymore and I'm soooo freaking depressed everyday): I just want to sleep all day everyday. It's making me truly hate life. I'm so scared someone save me from my thoughts right now please. Message me anyone!

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You've got a friend here. First of all, I'm guessing you are female? It depends, I believe, partly on how you were raised. Were you raised around guys to where you just feel more comfortable around them? Do you feel butterflies around other females? Maybe start a journal and keep notes on how your days go. Make note of how you feel when you see a male or female and take time to listen to what your heart and brain tell you about how you may feel toward each sex. I hope this helps some. Good luck!

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I am female. But I have HOCD....reading your comment gave me anxiety haha

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Don't keep a journal. You shouldn't be analyzing your attractions. The more you think about your attractions to men, the less you feel or you feel anxious. Let things happen and be patient.

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Thanks Bria! How are you doing?

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:) I'm okay, better than what I used to be. I can't stop thinking I'm faking this though and doubting that I have ocd. I keep thinking that I made the symptoms of hocd fit me or that I made myself fit the symptoms. I also wonder if I started to feel certain worries after I read about them or before. Last night I dreamt that I was being cuddled by a guy I liked but I felt guilty because I already have a boyfriend but then I started making out with a woman. I wasn't anxious about making out with a woman in the dream but I felt guilty again in my dream because I have a boyfriend. I stopped making out with the other woman and then started to wonder if I liked it and then I started to wonder how two women would have sex when there would be no penetration. NOw in my waking hours I'm wondering why I didn't freak out in my dream, why was I so calm about it.

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Hey ladies I don't want to get between you.. Or do I wink wink...