I'm new to this and I need help... I used to cut myself to relieve pain of a personal issue or for a punishment for something I did wrong. It's been a year since I last cut but... I think about it a lot when I'm at the bottom of the line. My old scares almost feel like they have come alive and crave to feel the sudden relief. I've struggled w/ self mutilation in different ways since I was 13, now 20. It's hard to not hurt myself in some way. About a month ago I had a mental break down and bit my thumb which made it bruise the next day. And the temptation doubles when I struggle a war inside my head. Part of the reason why is I have been diagnosed w/ Bipolar Disorder type II. I also struggle w/ a lot of physical pain. My white cells attack my own intestines which creates a lot of pain and fustration which makes it worse. And it also interfere w/ my weight loss. I have such low esteem from being over weight. And yes, I was bullied in Junior High and High School.
First of all, welcome to SG, I am glad you found this site. I'm sorry to hear about your pain, no one should suffer like that. I hope you stay strong for the ones you love as I am trying to as well. If you would like to talk, I am always here and up most nights.
Thank you.♥
Sorry you're having to deal with so much. Try to stay strong and love yourself *hugs*
I have found that this is awonderful community that talks and cares for everyone. WE are all here for you. The second I like to mention a lot is that something to take you mind off it. It sounds weird but politics and writing are now my hobbies. obviously I suck at writing but o well. With politics there is no "right" or "wrong" answer. I am trying to find a sponser for making a disability thinktank. It would be wonderful because im pretty sure a lot of us watch a lot of tv and movies. We have one thing that a lot of people forget. We still have our mind and we are still able to do it. On the bi polar the only advice I can give is have funny movies you would and could always watch and have them ready for those days. Last week I was in my apartment for 6 days and 4 of them I was lying down starring at the ceiling. I wish you the best of luck AND YOU COME TO THE RIGHT PLACE!!!
You are not alone!!! I can relate as someone who is still in High School and recently recovering from attempted suicide. I've been struggling with self harm since I was 13 too, and if you ever need someone to talk too i'm here.
Thank you all.
To dirkablaze. What do you mean by, "trying to find a sponser for making a disability think tank"?
And to all of you, I'm gladly here if you need to talk.
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