I'm not doing so great today. Which isnt different from any other day, I'm 28 years old and have lived with chronic pain for 25 years. I have been in some of the most severe pain in my life since January and had to go out on FMLA by mid February. My surgical team promised that they would help me but suddenly they have all backed out. They are too afraid to do surgery since risk of death is too high. I dont know what to do anymore. I was told when I was 16 (after my last major surgery) that I would be lucky to live to 30. That I would get sick again and that I most likely wouldn't survive surgery. And now I fear that they were right. I am so scared. I'm tired of being in agony every day. I am afraid to sleep because I am afraid I wont wake up. I'm afraid that the rest of my life will be nothing but pain so severe I can't walk. I just wish someone would help me. Sorry for such a long post. ...
I have 7 days to either find a way to work through my pain and return to my job, or resign, I don't think I will be able to work through it though. I worked so hard for so long to get to where I was in my job. And now it seems as though I will never work again. I feel worthless, useless, hopeless, and I dont know how long I will be able to keep on going.
I am so very sorry to hear about your situation: it's not fair. It sounds like you have never lived without pain. May I ask as to the source of your pain & poor health? I am here , and want to support you.
@Crochetedlady I have severe abdominal adhesions, basically all of my intestines are stuck together, to all nearby organs and to my abdominal cavity. Every time I move, it tugs those bands of scarring. I can’t even stand up right anymore because those adhesions are so tight that if i try to, it feels like everything is being ripped apart. And its gotten so bad that I have to use a walker to walk for more than a few moments.