I'm not okay. I'm at a point in my life where the last thing I should be doing is gambling. Im moving out July 1st, need to make sure I have almost $2000 for first and lasts months rent and moving expenses...yet I continue to blow my money at the casino or on scratch tickets. I feel so messed up because every time I lose I tell myself that okay, this is the last time..you can't do this no more. And then low and behold...I do it again..and again...and again.
I've been addicted to gambling for about the past 5 years. I shouldn't be this heavily addicted I'm only 24...but I am. I've been to GA meetings...I've had one on one counselling... Even checked myself into a 30 day program. Nothing works...its like the minute I have money I wanna gamble it, even when I know I absolutely shouldn't because it will leave me broke. I've gotten so used to the feeling of losing that now it has no effect on me...I stay calm and am just basically emotionless. That scares me. I'm about to go through some big changes in my life..and I can't bring gambling into them. I need to stop once and for all ...I just don't know how.
You must find what your "filling" in side you w/gambling, its an addiction, so like an addict your chasing an invisible dragon. If the counselor did not assist, I'd try another one while you stay here w/us for extra support. Gotta stay proactive, theres no quick fix, wish there was, I'm a smoker, I've cut back yet still smoke. Welcome here too.
thankyou. I actually went to the casino last night and blew $700... i really couldnt afford to lose that. I feel like ****, but todays anew day and im trying to stay positive.. i am going to go back and see a counselor because its making me physically sick
@ashleigh333 - wise decision, also you can ban yourself from casinos depending on what state you reside in.
yes.. i was thinking of banning myself
@ashleigh333 - another wise decision, go for it
I'm 3.5 years "off the bet." There is hope, this can be overcome. Find another Gambler to talk to, and be as honest as you can. The truth will set you free. Praying for you. I still remember the feelings and my heart goes out to you.
mgc