I'm not sure why I have so much trouble trying to sleep. I suppose my best guess is because I broke up with my boyfriend of 7 months back in early September. But I wasn't even sad. He abused me and I decided that I deserve better, and I still don't regret it for a second. So... what the heccckkkkk?!
I'm honestly scared to go about everyday life. I sleep throughout the day, my appetite sucks, I'm more irritable. Not to mention it affects my driving *big time*.... I just got a new job and if I can't get this under control, I'm really scared of what might happen. Especially if I'm working the morning shift. And I can't change my availability just like that since they were counting on me being open to any shift. I drive over 35 minutes to go see my friend sometimes. I seriously almost crashed once.
Caffeine makes me more tired (since caffeine dehydrates you, lol) so I really don't know what else to do. I could take melatonin and I actually might. But the last time I took it I felt really drowsy the next day. Not to mention it's a mild narcotic; your body eventually needs constant increases in dosage to get the same effect.
It's 5:23am and I haven't gotten sleep since 5pm (I took a 2hr nap after staying up all night). 1.5 hours of sleep is the time it takes to enter REM, which is when your body really starts resting and recharging. So I got the bare minimum lol
I'm gonna crash around 6:30 or 7am and then sleep until probably 2 or 3pm, and sequentially stay up all night again. My brain likes to torture me haha xD