I'm ok I wish my ex would find love ❤ and leave me a lone

I'm ok I wish my ex would find love ❤ and leave me a lone its been 5 years since I been with him I left him for another man because he would lie to me cheat on me and steal from me and chock me out I have a beautiful son with him and the courts gave him primarily custody of him so I have to kiss his but if I want to see my son or talk to him on the phone I feel like a victim still

in my book the courts did u wrong. take it one day at a time and go see a lawyer there has to be something more that can be done for u. my ex husband tried to get custody of my kids when they were 4 and 5 and I did not let it happen. it also depends on what state u live in to. all states have different laws with things like this.