I'm really struggling with this addiction. I can't stay out

Addiction & Recovery Sex & Pornography Addiction
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I'm really struggling with this addiction. I can't stay out of chat rooms Part of me thinks hey what's wrong with cybersex I'm not physically cheating. But a few days later I get very depressed.

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I know the feeling. While doing it you think no big deal chatting and masturbating but afterwards you hate yourself. Its your innerself saying i know what im doing is wrong and im not proud of myself!

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I feel the same way... The last time I sexted someone I got physically I'll because I was so mad at myself.

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It's cheating emotionally, so therefore you know it's wrong, your self esteem goes down and you feel like ****. Not something you would want your friends and family to know about, not something you want to be known for. Ask yourself what you are getting out of it apposed to the real thing, being touched is better than touching yourself. I kinda thought of it at times as lazy easy sex, lol. Well there is more to it but, yeah. Sexting can tear down your self esteem. Highly addictive and just not right.

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I ran out of time earlier, I wanted to say I think everyone convinces themselves of that in the beginning, that it isn't cheating. If you have a significant other under the understanding you not in an open relationship, than you are withholding info, which is lieing, weather you are attached to the sexter on the other side or not, it is still emotional because your significant other is lead to believe he/she is the only one your with. However some people take emotional affairs harder than a one night stand, others will take it all hard, in rare cases it wakes up a relationship of what they could have lost. Depending on the couple.

But yes you are right, it doesn't feel like it in the beginning, it feels like personalized porn. I decided if I wanted to be a porn star, I better **** well get paid for it! LoL. But I DON'T want to be, I want to be an icon to my children's future.

If you still felt like it isn't cheating head on over to the infidelity boards and read the men's post on how hey feel about their woman sexting.
Just my two cents, not much but I try to help ;)

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Something is catching up with you.