I'm scared I'm gay, that I've been my whole life.
What am I going to do? My boyfriend is making me doubt so much... In fact I don't think I feel anything with him. I like when we kiss and I don't want it to stop, but when he comes over to see me, before I feel very anxious, like I don't want him to idk y.
I want this to stop I wish I knew for certain I was straight it would save me so much heart pain and thoughts of suicide :'(
Believe it or not I'm better it's just so internalized.
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Rationalize this. You have OCD. You obsess about an idea. That idea is homosexuality. You do compulsions to get "proof". The proof does not exist. You are "using" your boyfriend as a checking compulsion. If you do that, you will be under OCD influence and of course get anxious and think you "don't feel the right thing".
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@NicoGZ can you support me please ?
if you kiss him and you dont want him to stop you obv somewhat want him. I think ive had R OCD and its a killer. Really think about whether or not you want to date him. Remember just because you dont want your bf doesnt mean youre gay. it just means you dont want that guy.
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I think i do now.
@NicoGZ already sent message