Im scared that im attracted to girls and not attracted to boys
But i mean, i mean for real.
Even before hocd.
I was never big over abs. And that scares me
I feel like i am bi or something but i cant do anything but lay in this pain and worry.
Just to accept it and just feel fear.
I know if i were i couldnt live as it.
I am just tired and wish i could be certain i was 100% straight
God help please.
What is there to fear in your sexuality? did you form your own personality and genes with your own hands? Do yo really believe that god makes misakes? Quit trying to blame yourself for something that was NEVER in your control, you can no more fall in love with a person you just pick up off the street than you can decide to straight ,bi, or gay. I don't know where you live, but I'd guess Texas, wherever you have a born in abhorrence for something most people don't even try to understand , everybody shuns and hates gays because everybody else before them did it,wnd those before them and so on and so foth, who even knows where it began? The truth is nature needs animals and people that are happy with their own sex, the pop -ulation is already out of control, at this rate you won't have a choice about having a child, you just won't be able to. I knew it seems like I'm coming on awfully strong but the truth is, you aren't sure, you need to get sure, try it, with both sexes, but not at the same time, you' will know pretty quick whether you like guys, girls, or both. Don't let the people in your life make you ashamed because you aren't just like their stepford butts. You are who you are, who god mad e you to be with his own hands and who he want s to see live and love in the world, don't throw that away.
Relax. Don't beat yourself up. Grow into whoever your are. OK? Don't ever feel like you have to fit into something your aren't. Just remember what an amazing person that you are and what an amazing person you will be. OK. Just wait it out and grow. Be strong for yourself.