so today my goal was to feel better physically and make a doctors appointment with a primary health and therapist
im feeling better thanks to pain pills
and i made a regular doctors appointment (this will be my first time seeing a doctor since i was 6 years old)
but im scared to go to a therapist
ive told yall some of the things in my life about my sex addiction and my flashbacks and my family abuse and being turned into a prostitute and being sexually abused but im scared to tell someone face to face. what if they laugh and tell me to just get over it
or what if they want to bring the cops in..... i dont want to go into all of it again i already have horrible flash backs im scared.
and then telling them about my sex addiction..... *crys* what do i do i need advice
hi, it is100% narural to be scared. Think of your fear of stress. You (negativaly) stress about living like this and you want change. Now you can make a choice, you can choose to put the (positive) stress into therapy.
Being scared is ok. We all were scared to start therapy. If you have never been in therapyu before then you prob have this pre-judegment of what it is like that - trust me, that image you have, its nothing like that. It is a safe enviroment where you can share whats bothering you and find solutions to you difficulty.
I have the same concerns as you. Some things that has happened me and that goes on in my head makes me afraid that i will sound stupid or something, but do not let that fear stand in your way. I can promise you, you will not be laughed at. Therapists understand that these are things that are bothering you and they do not judge you on what you are dealing with.
If you find it hard to tell everything, would you consider maybe writing things down so that the therapist knows exactly the stuff you are dealing with. When they know what you are dealing with, then they can help you deal with it.
*god, i wish i could apply some of what i just said to myself!!*
thank you that helped alittle im still to scared right now i want to get better but at the same time im scared and i just dont know
The first step is the hardest. Once you take the first step, your fear will reduce slowly. Dont give up. If this is something you want to do then try and not let the fear stand in your way or else you will be going in circles. I suffer with chronic anxiety and the anxiety made me not want to go coz it would creat more anxiety, but this was positive anxiety, anxiety that will actully help me.
The future is now. The decisions you make now determine your future. Think about that. The longer you wait, the harder it may be. My advice to you would be to pick up the phone or send that e-mail today. The sooner its done the better you will feel.