I'm scaring myself. I had a dang piece of bread with peanut

Mental Health Eating Disorders & Body Dysmorphia
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I'm scaring myself. I had a dang piece of bread with peanut butter for dinner and all I want to do is purge or exercise like crazy.....I feel like crying because I feel out of control

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I just ate and I feel the same way. So I went on a 15 minute walk and it's a little better now but I'm still feeling like I want to order a bunch of food and go nuts. It's helping me to think about the consequences of doing that (feeling horrid, wasted $, time, energy, and health problems). I screwed up and purged last night and I feel awful today. I want to do all in my power to prevent that but **** it is hard. I feel for you and with you in this mess. EFF eating disorders. It's ok to cry. Crying is way better than engaging. Or start cleaning like a madman--that's what I plan to do right now to distract myself.

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I spent some time on the exercise bike....I'm too tired to purge now. I'll take it