I'm sick of having to be a "good girl" when i've already messed up. I want so desperately to tell the truth, but fear my parents will disown me on the spot. I feel so terrible about this. I want to be their perfect little girl but I can't anymore. I can't! I don't know what to do about it. I don't know how to fix it. I don't know how to stop thinking about it and move on as an adult who makes her own decisions about her body. What I do know is that I hate myself for being so foolish, so childish, without care or restraint. Now look at me. Crying my eyes out and contemplating death over something that i should forgive myself for but can't. I want to be clean again...... I'm so sorry......
My dear we all make mistakes it is not our past that defines us it is the present and future if you made this mistake it cannot be undone you must forgive yourself and move on with your life do not dwell on it forgive yourself and move on and do not repeat it in the future ok