I'm so lost and confused and hurt I cant stop crying I'm so in love with this girl I love her so much its killing me ive known her since we where in 6th grade and she was my first love we used to date but I was so young I didn't know exactly what I wanted I knew I loved her but I hurt her so bad all the time because I was scared of what people would think I use to tell her we would be together forever but still chase guys she loved me so much and I always thought she was beautiful it wasn't until it was to late that I realized I love her so much she was always there for me when I was alone and I took it for granted I just want to be with her but its too late she doesn't love me like she did before but now I love her more then I ever have I need her I know she knows how I feel but I don't think she likes girls anymore.....I will always love her though
I am so sorry for what you went through and are going through. Relationships are always tough, and especially when you're young and still trying to figure it all out. But one thing you gained is knowing how deeply you can love. The fact that you loved her, and continue to love her, so much shows me that you'll be okay. Because you are still so young- you will find someone who you can share all that love with and they can share their love with you too. And it'll be at a time when you guys know what you want and aren't afraid to want those things. You can't blame yourself for what happened then- you were still trying to figure it all out- we all are! It's impossible to go through life without hurting others or others hurting us. That's just a fact. I am so sorry that you're hurting now. But feeling these lows shows me that you will be able to feel the highs of life and love all that much more. I know it's tough right now but just know you're not alone. We are here for you. You are so strong and you will get through this. Hang in there!