Hi everyone my name is Nikki and I have been diagnosed with Bipolar 1 and Borderline Personality Disorder for about 2 or so years. Ever since my diagnosis I have been spirling down into the abyss of darkness. My symptoms are out of control, I began self harming more after my diagnosis and my emotions are just a mess. I don't know what to do, how long does it take to find the right meds and get the skills to live a normal life? I've just been struggling so long and now I'm at the bottom of the rabbit hole for so long I just want to know how to climb up. I have changed meds every couple of months, been in the hospital six times in 1.5 years, and totally destroyed my family. My point is not to come on here and feel sorry for myself so I'm sorry for that long vent. It's just dealing with the symptoms of both bipolar and borderline is just a lot to stomach lately and I was wondering how others get through this? Thanks.
Please, try to have another medical opinion, it will be very helpful. I think, with right diagnosis and proper medicine you can have a normal life. Have faith and ask God for guidance and He will be there for you. I am praying for you.
Thank you so much Marcie I really appreciate it. Thank you for the prayers I will try to be as positive as possible.
Im sorry your having such a hard time I am bipolar as well. I was diagnosed 4 years ago, I have been in and out of the hospital 5 times. They have tried me on numerous meds, changing them every month. Nothing seems to work. i to like you started self harming myself, I dont know if it was to have control over something , to get rid of some of the pain or the voices in my head telling me to do it. Its hard on the family but its something we have no control over. If you need to talk Im here.
Hi my name is Peej and I have been having problems with self-harm also I have 3 weeks of not and I just wanted to say I pray to God and sometimes beg for help and He usually finds someway to help like finding this group so just hang on these feeling come and go or atleast they do for me and my voices yes they yell and scream for me to cut again almost every hr but what I have is this minute and Im writing this to keep from other behaviors. I know its and old quiech to say take it one day at a time but I say take it one minute at a time and thats what Im trying and I finally have 3 weeks of not cutting and I hope it gets easier and I hope and pray the same for you!!!! Peej
I'm also Bi-polar 1 and BPD. It is a really rough thing. If you ever want to talk to someone who can relate from that level please feel free to contact me. I will say it is important to be as aware of yourself as you can be. These two particular conditions feed into each other in a fierce destructive way.
Don't give up it can be beat.
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