******trigger warning******I'm starting to get that familiar burning and tingling in my arms.. I hate how out of control I feel.. but I won't let this get me down I won't resort back to cutting... I just don't know how longer I can go withought scratching
@AllisonH0099 If you need to talk i am here
Allison, it can be almost impossible to resist that urge:( my heart is breaking for where you are right now. Know that others care so much for you, I do not know you but I care for you sweet girl. Try this, try to take a really deep breath. Then breathe again. Then think about the fact that people you've never met are sitting and praying for you now. I don't know what your family or relationship like is like but I can promise you that here, people care about you. You are worth so much, you have no idea how much you are worth. I know harming your body feels like it helps and it may help for a minuet, but you know as well as I that it doesn't last. I don't know what you believe or don't believe but I'm praying for you my dear. You are worth way too much to hurt yourself. Would you look at a perfect rose and start cutting the petals off? Or a beautiful painting and peeling away the brush strokes? You are so much more beautiful and so so much more valuable then those things, you are so loved. More than you could ever understand you are so loved. And those that love you don't want to see you hurting.
@lynn413 thank you so much, that means the world to me that you care, I know all of the people who love me care as well that’s how I’ve resisted cutting for so long and only scratching at times but after finally reaching out to someone even with my anxiety just to talk for a few days then be completley ignored then to be told not to talk to them just triggered my anxiety, I feel like I lost all of my progress which is making me upset and triggering more anxiety and it’s so hard to handle but I don’t want to make anyone cry over me again either…
Oh gosh I'm so sorry to hear that. That is so not fair that that person did that, but it's awesome that you have people looking out for you. Going to them in those hard times may be really hard, but I know that they would want to help. So many people never knew about my problems, but then when they found out, they all wondered why I didn't come to them when I needed someone. I felt so stupid because I was afraid to let anyone know, but then the people that loved me the most wished they could have been there for me through everything. I bet those people in your life would love to help you through what your going through
@lynn413 They do, I am so thankful to have everyone on here and in my family supporting me