I'm struggling with independence. I want to be out on my own so bad, but I can't seem to hold a job. I get so afraid of my coworkers. They make me uncomfortable, even if they are nice people. I can be too open, and then they see my outbursts. I get upset so easily. My mind will not stop making up stories of the bad things people think of me. I know it's all in my head, but it will not stop. The self harm sets in, then I want to restart. I want everyone to forget about me. I quit my job, block all numbers and start again.
I finally have a job that I can handle. It is a minimum wage cashiering job.
Currently in a struggle with a coworker being very cold, and unsympathetic toward me. I opened up to him, and when we had an argument he came into work treating me like a child. Now he glares and gives me the cold shoulder. As we all know, rejection is a huge trigger! I scratched up my face and thought nothing but how I should die. Over a kid acting like a high schooler! I can't believe I opened up to someone, and they turn around and treat me so poorly, over one mistake. I even apologized, but he is such a bully. I don't want to quit my job because of this. How do I deal with him? How do I stay okay at work, so I quit sinking so low?