Hello,
I always post in the eating disorder site, but I felt very compelled to write in this section also. I have to share my story so that others will not end up with my problem. If one person does not have to suffer like I am now, then my problem will not be in vain.
I have starved and dieted excessively/overexcercised for 14 years now, trying to achieve that perfect look in the magazines: thin and perfect.
i have almost died from anorexia and am now crippled now from arthrits from my eating disorder. I have seen women suffer on a day to day basis with ED, thinking they are too fat when they are lovely, and tormented by horrible evil thoughts. I have also seen women with body dismorphic disorder diet all the time to achieve happiness.
This has got to stop now.
From all the years of torment done to my body--- I now have a super slow metabolism and I have damaged my insides. From all the overexcercise I have given myself adrenal fatigue---which causes tons of weight gain no matter what you do. I have exhausted myself searching for the holy grail of perfection--only to have damaged my body to the point of no return. I have gained approx 13 pounds this year even through hours upon hours of excessive work outs and perfect eating because I my damaged metabolism and now have adrenal fatigue.
I AM DONE with this hell.
I dont care if I end up fat or thin or middle ground. I dont care what people think anymore cause I'm done with people; all people do is talk about weight, dress size, image, clothes, and greed. Im done with people and what they think and how they are so hateful and JUDGEMENTAL.
So, Im overweight now, but it was only cause I was trying to fit into Americas DUMB thin culture, but not anymore! If all people care about is how I look, then Im done with befriending others.
So, my point is this: do NOT go on diets! No, No, No! You will destroy your metabolism and end up like ME!!!!! I have NO metabolism and I keep gaining weight despite the healthiest diet in the world! I never over eat; I hate food to begin with. Deits dont work! OH you'll lose some weight in the beginning, but in the end, youll gain TONS of weight faster than ever ! It is shocking how much weight you can gain from the crazy concept of 'eat less, excercise more'. It is balogney! Dont listen! Youll end up damaging your body like me.
We all need to eat HEALTHY and a good amount every day. Sure, excercise is fine but in moderation. I overexcercised and ended up with adrenal fatigue, so now my body is suffering like crazy. I have gained so much weight from the adrenal fatigue but I am starting not to care. Caring about how I look like and weight is driving me crazy and it is making me want to die! I dont care if i dont fit in, I'm sick of trying to look thin and perfect. I just want to be ME.
So, instead of losing weight try excercising your mind for a change. Try building up yoiur brain instead of your body . That is what I am doing. I might end up being overweight for the rest of my life due to the damage of eating disorder, but I want to explore who I truly am; who I am on the inside. I want to be known for my heart and brain, not my body. Trying to look beautiful all the time causes nothing but misery,and being thin brings nothing but hell! Thin does not equal happiness but torture!
I'm tired of this society telling everyone to lose weight. Soceity can go to hell. Im sick of what people to do one another. People are so JUDGEMENTAL and full of hate. I'll stick to myself from now on.
So, please heed to my words and do not diet, but eat right and allow yourself a treat, also! Dont give into this SICK world of weight loss! Be you , and then youll be happy! Thin does not equal happy!
From now on, Im going to study as much as I can; Im putting my brain over my looks.
Thanks for letting me share and I hope this helps. God Bless.
Love
Maureen