In a perfect world would I have less than I have now and be happy? In a perfect world would I be okay? If we lived in a perfect world, would I not have to say things about my life to total strangers, even though what I suffer from is more or less Dissociative Identity Disorder than Schizophrenia, but that doesn't matter but it probably needed to be said, I don't really know but If you DON"T stop talking I swear I will get you faster than Sidney Crosby can win the 2010 Winter Olympic hockey game. Answer me this though... If we lived in a perfect world could I wake up every morning and not hate myself so much that I feel no need to look at myself and smash mirrors?
Is there more to life than feeling like you don't even belong in your own body because what you think you look like and what you know you look like are to totally different things? Can someone tell me If my nightmares will ever end? Can someone show me if there is more to living on this sphere we cal home? can you please prove to me that just because the other people are scared of you, doesn't mean that you have to be scared of what you are capable of?
Your post caught my attention. My sister has schizophrenia, and I want to understand.
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i had been diagnosed with schizophrenia bipolar . i do understand what you are going through. i have been recovering for about three to four years after full blown schizo for about 7 years. I went through some dellusions...it is hard,what i looked like didn't look like me so i just ignored it because i knew it wasn't real. Nightmares were ...i thought never ending for me too. How is your liveing inviornment...are you eating the right foods , do you have support:family ,friends. are you trying to focus on the positive and not the negative . God gave me this and he gave me this scripture (Philippians:4:8) "Finally brethren,whatever things are true, whatever things are noble,whatever things are just, whatever things are pure,whatever things are lovely,whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praisworthy meditate on these things."
You tell SATAN "It is written " then tell him this scripture.
If you feel like you are to hurt somone ,don't get around people..... there are bad days ...and worse days...and if you have good days then recive and do good things and think good things. Don't forget that you are human.
i was loosing site of what that was...thinking that no one could see or hear me that i was a spirit or an angel or somthing.In reality i was living feeling unnoticed and that is where i got it from. So, if your mind tries to play tricks on you ...God gave this scripture:(2 Timothy:chapter 1:verse 7) it is written"For God has not given us a spirit of fear,but of power and of love and of a sound mind." Pray this prayer to Jesus.
Stop thinking this is a horrible place to live ...Speak good things...speak as though they were.
Genesis 1:1 "in the begining God created the heavens and the earth."
Genesis 1:4 "And God saw the light ,that it was good;..."
Genesis 1:10"And God called the dry land Earth,and the gathering together of the waters He called Seas. And God saw that it was good."
Genesis 1:12 "And the earth brought forth grass,the herb that yields seed according to it's kind , and the tree that yields fruit, whose seed is in itself according to it's kind. And God saw that it was good."
Genesis 1:16"Then God made two great lights:the greater light to rule the day,and the lesser light to rule the night.He made the stars also.
Genesis 1:17 "God set them in the firmament of the heavens to give light on the earth,
Genesis 1:18 " and to rule over the day and over the night, and to divide the light from the darkness.And God saw that it was good."
Genesis 1:21 "So God created great sea creatures and every living thing that moves,with which the waters abounded,according to their kind,and every winged bird according to it's kind.And God saw that it was good."
Genesis 1:25 "And God made the beast of the earth according to it's kind,cattle according to it's kind,and everything that creeps on the earth according to it's kind.And God saw that it was good."
Genesis 1:26 then God said" Let Us make man in Our image,according to Our likeness;.."
Genesis 1:27"So God created man in His ownimage;in the image of God He created him;male and female He created them."
Genesis 1 :31 "Then God saw everything that He had made and indeed it was very good..."
You are not alone and you are beautifull in god's eyes...you are the apple of his eye.
Don't give up.
I am embarrassed to admit that I need support this time! I have been in this hospital for 6 hospital stays and 2 nursing home stays since August 2015. I have only been home twice ( 2 1/2 days--not full days), and am having my 7th surgery on Monday. My marriage is crumbling. I feel so helpless. Our marriage has never suffered a distance like this. He is so tired of driving to see me, he is refusing. My kids have not seen me except once in the nursing home in the beginning. I am more afraid of losing him than my own life.
@crochetedlady I lost my wife because of this disease (and other things). Its the worst thing that could have happened to me besides the disease itself. I feel for you. Hope your family sticks together forever. Do the best you can to keep everybody together.