so yesterday i was weighed by my therapist and i am currently underweight. my weight has continued to drop for months and yesterday it went up. I know this is a good thing and my therapist was very happy and was telling me how well i was doing, but the ED keeps telling me that now im fat and i need to lose weight even though i am still underweight.
I know it is difficult to deal with the fact that you have gained weight, but it can only be a good thing - for your health and for the future that is waiting for you.
EDs can terribly distort your mind and perspective on things - in this case, it's telling you that you are 'fat' when in actual fact you are underweight. It's hard to do so, but you really have to try hard to disregard what the ED is saying to you.
Gaining weight isn't easy to deal with. But it does get easier when you are more nourished, and I think that that's what you need at the moment.
Try to keep on moving forward.. because life has so many beautiful things waiting for you. You are going to do great things with your life, but you can't do it with an eating disorder.
I agree with Faye. At the end of the day, you can't continue to loose weight forever, at some point your body will start shutting down and you will eventually die if you don't put a stop to this pattern. I have suffered from anorexia for 11 years and have continued to battle with the concept of weight gain. It is so so hard to deal with but if you want to get better, if you want to live a happy, full and complete life, you need to work at getting rid of this eating disorder, and a part of that is gaining weight.
At the end of the day, it comes down to a simple question: do you want life or do you want a slow, miserable death? Because thats all the eating disorder has to offer.
Take care xx
The eating disorder will always want to fight against your true needs and recovery. Please try to remember what losing weight can lead to, and even though recovery is not a clear image for you YET, I promise you that it's much better than the alternative.
Simone said well....long term, what do you want for your life, and will an ED enable you to live the life you want? Very likely NOT.
Take care, and keep fighting!!
Jan ♥
thanks. I think I may be eating a little less, but not really or not on purpose. I'm trying to just keep myself on track because I don't want to go through treatment again.