In the last 7 months have found myself getting more and more

Addiction & Recovery Substance Abuse
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In the last 7 months have found myself getting more and more addicted to cocaine doing it now and then to every week and now even in the weekdays. It doesn't even make me feel particularly happy just kicks off paranoia and ocd. I have just finished a college course and have a good job. I don't want this to ruin my life. Helpppp!

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Hi welcome. You have come to the right place for support and that is a great first step. You can beat this.

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hi. So who are you ? and are you someone with an addiction too or are you one of the online support people ?

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@barralet1 I was there at one time myself. I am not an online support specialist.

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I was relating to the housemushroom anyway. Yeah I have always found that I can generally keep myself happy without drugs. The last 7 months I have been doing more and more coke and is now affecting my finances and is getting harder to avoid. Now you are clean do you not find temptation is always right in front of you ?

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It is everyday, but when it almost kill you and your rush last 7 hours. It scared me sober, after a solid month +.

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So how long have you been off it ?

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@barralet1 may 12th of this year…

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Wow that is sod all lol. You need to be off it for a year to say your off it lol. Mate I nearly died and went mad on mephadrone and MDMA few years back. Kicked off my OCD and everything. Moral of the story stay away from drugs unless u are hardcore at self control.

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@barralet1 no matter how strong we are at self control, the demon will grab us when we least expect it.

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I did cocaine pretty much every day for a number of years. Besides jacking me up in all these uncomfortable ways, I may have caused some damage to my sinuses, as well as possibly my heart. All I can say is, it's all regret. If I could take it back, I would. Pacing around sniffling like a nut.....it was like poisoning myself and sticking my finger in a socket. I don't know what to say about how to persuade people not to do it, I can only say that you will regret it, and you will feel so much better and healthier and more comfortable when you say that's enough of that crap, I'm tired of it, and I just don't do it any more.

Then, one day you find yourself observing others doing it.......and they look like wild eyed uncomfortable lunatics and it reinforces that yeah......you made the right choice.

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Defo not worth it. It's true all it ends up with is you looking back regretting the money wasted and brain damage done. I have just finished my second year in studying accountancy. I have to pack it up or it will mess my game up.

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That's awesome. Oh I don't miss all those dark, terrible corners...

Thanks for sharing all that. I'd say you are a great success!

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Thankyou for saying but i am Still a work in progress. I went to a funeral for one of my old friends last year. Seriously it was like the cast of some terrible horror movie. I swear zombies and skeletons a gollum. Then there is the tragedy that they have let their kids become addicts too. My own sister died because of her addiction. The tox screen on her body read like a chemist list. Success is measured daily. I do still have addiction issues and probably always will. As long as i remain aware of them and am vigilant not to let new habits form or my addiction to transfer to another which is quite possible.

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