Its a shame to say, but I hope I die while I'm still working

Its a shame to say, but I hope I die while I'm still working. It is the only way I can leave my wife some extra cash to help her out when I'm gone.
Im having a hard time getting motivated at work. I use to just come in so early and just get going. Now all I want to do is just close my eyes and sleep. Im not sure how much longer I can do this but I must for my wife and kids future well being. Its a sad sad world we live in when you are frightened about your future.

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don't be afraid it will work out

@lilmonster Thank you. I hope some day it may get a little easier.