It's been 6 months since I left my husband. We still talk even though I have moved on to someone new since then. Most days I am able to put the past behind me. I left because although I love him, our relationship was toxic and had been for a long time. Some days however, I just want to sit and cry for all I have lost.
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I am in awe of the insight you have into your relationship with him. I describe my super horrible first relationship like...waking up in the morning, brushing your teeth, and then taking a sip of orange juice. Both are good by themselves neither is bad-but when taken together leave a pretty bad taste in your mouth. It is amazing that you are able continue talking, I think it is inevitable though that when we are in any kind of relationship that cause such extreme emotions our hearts will always be affected in some way even when we do move on. Sending hugs and supportive vibes!
I admire you for being able to talk to him. I can only talk to mine in text or email and he generally does not respond to me. He moved on to another woman even before he told me he wanted out and that we were no good for each other. The no good and loveless marriage was all news to me. Looking back I see where we were not good for each other but I can't or don't know how to let go of how much I still love him. I hope I can move on and quickly. We have not filed for divorce yet because he promised to provide for us financially until I was healed from all my surgeries and have a job. I know it will give him a break if I have a job but I can't do it on alimony and child support. So glad you were able to admit the relationship hazards and move on. I hope the same for myself as well