Im a 34yrs woman in London. I realised that I was in a cycle of emotional abuse that from a young age I had been the dumping ground for when people were under stress. someone said “from a young age you seem to draw fire” and I hadn’t noticed. And that this had escalated and carried into my adult life and was spiralling out of control. I knew that my childhood in some way had been better than others and we seemed like the perfect family. so seemed strange when Most people didn’t even care when they’d hurt me or when I was badly hurt. After a while even the few friends started to disappear too. I realised all the people my friends had also been abused emotionally in some way and instead of supporting may even find excuses why it was my fault. Because this was normal life for them. Now Im lonely and dont know how to make new good friends. Now Its the Weekend with no friends & nowhere to go! Can you relate / help?
I can relate. Many people have hurt me either knowingly or unknowingly but not all of them have apologized. I am 36 and there are things from when I was 17-18 that very much hurt me but I have decided to be the bigger person and forgive them for my mental health. I can also relate to the friends disappearing because I have had friends disappear from my life as well. I can relate to the loneliness because I am lonely as well. Look for meetup groups. Or you could also find bookclubs if you love to read. I know that both meetup groups and bookclubs and/or libraries have helped me. You could also go to a movie theater and see a movie. There might even be meetup groups that meet up to go see movies or travel or have bookclubs.
I can relate too. I think the best you can do is find interest groups. This can be a sport, art, entertainment, something that builds a community around it. This could be very helpful for you to get into a routine. 
Thanks for the replies! Im not sure we can actually make friends from Meetup though. Have you? I wish there was some way we could chat with each other here or hang out together and support each other, as we know what were going through and can relate to each other.
The best you can do is go into something with no expectations. Do not try to make friends. Be yourself. Go somewhere where people do something you like/enjoy and then enjoy that thing. Naturally, by interacting with people you will find some that are a match to your personality and who you are. Trust me, if you do what you need to do, eventually something will come. Maybe not today, or tomorrow, or in a month, but I promise you it will come.
Regarding chatting, I’m up for it. It is a bit hard to chat in platform, as I do not get notifications when I get messages. Spend most of the day working 
, but lets talk. Just know that the replies might not be too fast. Which to be fair, with me they never come quick 
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Just message me
I can relate I just got out a 10 year narcissistic abuse relationship that man was my everything even best friend and now i don’t have that. I don’t have any friends and i don’t have oppurtunities to get out and social and have fun so I’m sitting in the house on a Friday night feeling pathetic and all alone no one understand the heartbreak i feel
enjoy your own company!
wow me too but it was alot shorter length of time only 3 years. but might end up spending christmas alone yet again. Im trying to work on the inner me and build myself back up. Ive been finding all these online meditation and self development courses. Plus Ive been listening to this guy Dalexi on youtube mindfulattraction and he’s been showing us women all the tips and tricks of of what toxic men are like and some vids show us how to behave better for ourselves