Well, it is 4:30 am Mon and I am still awake. I have spent this time working on what I am going to do with my life. I have some things I need to do later this am and then I'm done. If I can't seem to make sound judgment decisions and find a life of my own with some type of happiness. (which I can say I have truly tried) I should be dead by weds. I can whine away on these support sites and still I feel the same way. I have been feeling this way for some time and now I realize that I am wasting air. Postponing the inevitable and wasting what money I have in the bank to support this. My son needs this money for college and my car as an upgrade for him to complete college with reliable transportation. I have it completely organized and ready to proceed. I am thankful that I happened across this site and I am thankful for being able to put my feelings into words. It has given be clarity.
Hi Trish, please know that your son needs you more than anything, and know that you have so much hope for a hugely successful and happy future. Please know that I am here to help you in any way that I can, let's work together on getting you to this happy place. You are in my thoughts and prayers.