Iv got BPD and I'm at my wits end

Mental Health Personality Disorders
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Iv got BPD and I'm at my wits end

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I'm here if you need to talk it out. I'm going into work but you can message me if you need to

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It's getting to a point were I can't bare it, iv got the 2 year therapy starting in 3 weeks, but I'm also in another hell becuz my partner is dying with cancer and we are forced apart becuz of it becuz the radiation n she's my rock I can't talk to her becuz she's in n out of induced comas I'm left here on my own 24/7 I'm hurting so much

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That is a very difficult position. Already your emotions would be strong in response to your circumstance. With BPD on top you must be going through the roof. I'm here if you need someone to talk to.

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Through the roof isn't the word this is the worst iv ever been n iv had to deal with 4 of my baby's dieing last year in a car crash n now I'm going to lose my girl n with myself with bpd Is a real struggle minute by minute, my whole family have seen a rapid change in me I look resigned to suicide which if attempted many times, I'm a open book now having gone through the therapy stuff u have to tell everything to alot of strangers so now I just flood out with info, I'm just a total mess n so alone

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@ashmufc7 Not alone. I struggle with those strong emotions too. You have a lot of grief to get through. I’m sorry about your children. That’s extremely hard too. You have so much going on. Do you have any friends to confide in? Close buddies. I’m here to listen if you need to express yourself.

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Only my girl is the one I confide in I can't go to anyone else becuz they are judgmental n dnt have a clue how I feel plus I can't trust to much becuz I get hurt by everyone I feel like I'm suffering in silence even tho I'm on a therapy programme n all my family no about my condition I still feel alone I'm in alot of pain 24/7 it's never ending

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Well, if you do feel the need and feel that you can trust me. I will be here for you. Share what you feel you need. I will do my best not to judge. Who am I to judge?

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@ashmufc7 I can't tell you how sorry I am to hear about your children and your partner. As a mother, I can't imagine how your heart breaks. I won't pretend to know how you feel as I have not lost a child or my husband, but I do have BPD and a listening ear and I am happy to be here for you if I can in any way. I understand what the BPD is like, and I know that there is a BIG GOD out there who loves you and can comfort you. I am here if you need anything. God Bless you, and I will say a prayer for you tonight.

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Thank you everyone