I've got constantly fear of losing my flat belly. I'm addict

I've got constantly fear of losing my flat belly. I'm addicted to exercise. 6 days per week, 2 - 3 hours, every time i cheat with chocolate or cookies, i regret it, i punish myself with more exercise the other day. My boyfriend is getting tired of these stupid emotions of mine, i'm feeling it, and my mother doesnt even care. Im losing it, my control. Slowly losing it. I just want to be normal, loved and happy. How much i want this?

welcome to the group. I know where you are coming from. you need to quit punishing yourself.