I've been living with my eating disorder for about two years now. I was released from inpatient treatment last may and have been doing pretty well maintaining and coping with my emotional battles but the past two months have been extremely hard and now I feel like I've lost control over my ED. I can't stop using behaviors and feeling guilty over everything I consume or for every low exercise day. My parents got rid of all the scales after I was diagnosed and I've been strong enough to not buy one but I recently found one in my house and have gotten obsessed with the number which I've been watching get a little lower every week. I don't want to do this to myself but I can't see myself without it. I don't know what to do.
Hello...thank you for sharing. I know it takes a lot of courage to reach out for support.
Do you still see a therapist? Can you identify what may have started the spiral downward?
Please be open with your family and make sure you are seeing a therapist. If you need a short time back in treatment, that's not unusual, and it's better than waiting until you spiral down so far that it takes month to regain your weight and health back.
You found the scale....now you can get rid of it. Put it in the trash, have your parents lock it away somewhere...anything but keeping it where you can once again allow those numbers to rule your life. It's not worth it!
Please continue to share and let us know how we can help...take care..Jan ♥
Thanks for the support, I haven't seen a therapist for a few months now. After I left Princeton EDU I went to one but then I missed an appointment or two and was too nervous about calling to start up again so I just haven't gone. It was working out pretty well though because I had a great support group among the girls I was in Princeton with but lately they haven't been around which I think may be part of why I'm starting to struggle. I also am just overwhelmed with things to do between work, college, coaching,and trying to have some sort of social life and seem normal. I have the day off today so it's been relaxing, I slept till 1:30 because I just had no motivation to get up but I finally decided to start my day. I am struggling with intake but I'm hoping after the gym I'll feel a little more confident in myself. Hope you have a good day though !!