I think it really hit me that I have an anger problem one day when after I had had an argument over something really small and stupid, and I threw and broke things, and my husband said "you need to take anger management!!" I was soooo embaressed that I went in the room and cryed. It seems like every other day that something goes wrong, and it is always my fault. It makes me so angry, I throw things, break things, yell at people who don't deserve it..It just has to stop, I just don't know how.
Dear JMC,
Recently Ive realized Im becoming very very bitter.In effect to my bitterness other people react the same way. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep thinking, "this isnt what I want my life to be"
People told me, "Youre acting different" and of course I say "NO Im not. Im always like this" It bugs me when ppl say that. Its usually meant to be offensive.
Just yesterday I started controlling what I say. Sometimes I thought the words would explode out of my mouth. And things were AMAZING!! They were! People acted so different to me. and I loved it!
I think I will try it more often. This is a changing point in my life! I even got a haircut!
Anyway
I congratulate you!
It takes some courage to admit things that you wouldnt normally admit.