Just not feeling myself, my head hurts and i feel enormous...
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:Hi Hisanorexicprincess, I know that feeling well.... I too suffer from Anorexia, Depression and a few other deep-rooted illnesses.... My 'Head' most of the time, is in a constant battle with my 'Mind' & 'Body'... My perception on 'Life' is some-what 'Scue-Whiff' ' (If you know what I mean)' and my 'Minds' thinking about my body, is 'Overwhelming & All-Encompasing'..... People around are always putting pressure on me to 'EAT' and yet, I don't freakin 'Want' to eat because, I already feel enourmess.... Even though, again, people around me, tell me how 'skinny' I am and yet, I look in the 'Hour-Glass' and see, somebody who is 'Not' the person that, they see.... I see a different person, looking back at me.... All of these things are 'Overpowering' me and bringing me to a level, I've not know before and, I am 'Silently Suffocating' in a world that is, 'Empty' for me... Sent with love, Trish x
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@Osultrus we have all been through that. our minds are a very powerful thing. we have to learn to ignore it at times. I know it is hard because I have been there. people telling you to eat does not work for an anorexic.
I've gained a lot of weight since I married my husband. Finding out about his emotional affair has triggered my bulimia but no one notices that I don't eat or disappear when I manage to get something down. At least you have people that are concerned. My 11 year old is the only one who has noticed my change.
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@pennyarcane Hi, I’m sorry you are feeling this way… when I say people around me - the person I mean is my mum who, is the only person I have ‘Any’ kind of relationship with… It’s not a good relationship, ‘to-say-the-least’ but, unfortunately, I’m temporarily ‘living with her’ so, she is constantly ‘on-my-back’ and, ‘NOT’ in a good way… I don’t have friends and, I don’t get on with ‘Any’ of, the other members of my family… So I feel, really lonely and isolated with this ED and, the other issues, I face on a daily basis… I think about suicide ‘every day’ and have attempted it, on numerous occasions… I wish, my life would just end… That is the only time, I think / hope I will be at ‘Peace’… pennyarcane, I am concerned about you and, I will support and, help you in any way I can… I am here for you and you can PM me anytime… We can talk through ‘Everything’ you are going through… I suffer from ‘Insomnia’ so, I am awake virtually all of the time… I just survive on ‘Cat-Naps’ so please, just reach out to me… I will catch you and, won’t let you fall… You can ‘Trust’ me explicitly ( Trust, is a ‘Huge’ Issue for me because, of everything, I have been through ‘In My Life’ so, It is ‘Not’ a word or emotion, I offer freely but, I am offering ‘IT’ to you…) I will not ‘Abandon You’… If you support me back, then you can PM me and, tell me ‘All’ that your going through… Your In My Thoughts, and I am concerned and I care… Sent with love, Trish x ( I hope you ‘Understand’ what I have written as my head is some-what ‘muzzy-fuzzy’…)
Hisanorexicprincess the only thing enormous is your heart, Osultrus your mum would miss u if you were gonel I bet a bunch more too, please don't think of leaving that way, old age is the way, I've in the way of thinking, I know it never really goes away, but it isn't the way to feel.
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@lifestough I agree with you. the anorexia I feel never totally goes away. your mind set is a powerful enemy.
I am studying different therapies right now, and was wondering if I could ask you if you have ever tried energy healing before as a treatment option?
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@flowerbug1 I have never heard of it. whatis it if you don’t mind my asking?
Thank you guys i appreciate the support and other life experiences to know I'm not alone
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@Hisanorexicprincess you are never alone on this site