Hi guys my names Amber. I am 18 and just starting out on my own. When I first moved out I was extremely happy and ready for life.Unfortunately that didn't last long even though I am doing very good in college, am engaged to my boyfriend of 6 years, and have my own apartment and am close to my family I have been feeling quite unusually depressed. I had a bad experience with some synthetic drugs (which I am not doing anymore) my mom has gotten a bit sick (not fatally but incurably),one of my friends committed suicide (about a yr ago) and I have really acquired a few awful fears. I have not been diagnosed with anything but I feel pretty confident that I have moderate depression and am bipolar (my mom has been my diagnosed with bipolar, manic depression, anxiety, and so on & we are very alike). Since I am so young I want to try more natural ways of working through this (I have been taking St Johns Wort and trying to keep busy and energetic and positive)and I have seen nice improvement but I am still struggling & I feel myself not really looking forward to the bright future I know is ahead of me. Basically I have not given up hope and I want to keep it that way and make it better by getting the support I need.
Sorry for the rambling but I am just anxious to feel better about life and get the support I need! Thanks for those who are listening
Hey Amber. My name's Hannah Rose and I think I can get what you're going through because i'm going through something similar right now! I'm 18 and have been at uni for about 9 months now. At first I've was so happy, but suddenly the second term hit and I went into a state of depression which i've never experienced before, and it was so confusing. I think the best advice I can give is to get some help. It sounds pretty daunting but it can do the world of good even to just understand why you're feeling like this. Remember you have your family, friends, boyfriend who love you, and also people on here who are ready to support and help you :) If you want to talk some more just message me i'd be happy to chat :) xx