I have a 5 inch blade sitting next to me. and he's whispering to caress him with the pale skin of my forearm. I am numb. All I want to feel is... anything.

It's not worth it. Once you start it will be so hard to stop. You wouldn't be on here if you didn't want help so let us help you come talk to us instead. Let us help you.

Don't do it. I do too, but i don't want to keep scarring my self any longer.
you are NOT worthless, someone out there does care about you.
If you think no one does, i do.
please don't..