i just want to say to myself - f*** this specific phobia and social anxiety. I am going to live my life the way i want to. This s***, it is not going to prevent me from getting where im going. I have struggled enough and i know that even tho iv had 7yrs of this **** and im only 21, i can do it.
When i think i will have this forever it disheartnes me...so im taking it one day at a time. The concept of forever is over whelming so every day i take as it comes....and thats all i can do
My future is now....the nest decision i make, determines my future so i am taking every day and doing whats best for me within that day. My decisions will determine my furute, and i WILL have a future...
Screw you MH i am living my life wether you want me to or not.......
I have always looked after those who needed to be looked after. Im not going to stop looking after them, just i am coming first these days.
I deserve to be happy, to have a life and to embrce every moment of it...so i will do my bes to make this happen.
People, places and things - i have got no control over this, but me, i have control over me. I control my my actions and my thoughts do not determine who i am or what i shall do. I AM TAKING CONTROL...
Okay rant over!....good rant tho :)