I am new to this and really don't know where to start. 2010 was the worst year of my life. I am on my second marriage with 2 daughters from a previous marriage, they are now 20 and 25. January 2010 my youngest was missing for 2 months, my teeth started to fall out. I let this effect my job, couldn't help but cry everyday. Over the summer, my husband had an affair, my youngest daughter finally came home pregnant. To end the year off right, my oldest daughter got her second dui, lost her license for a year and moved back home.
I survived it, not sure how. When I go to bed every night I pray that I won't wake up. When I wake up, I curse the fact that I did wake up and dred every day of my life.
My husband and I are trying to work things out. I am really not sure if I want to. I am now a grandmother and not happy about it. Everyone says the baby is a blessing but I am still not happy about it. I raised my kids and now everyone is at home again plus one.
Over the past few days, I realize I do not like my family and don't enjoy being around them. Is it wrong that I just want to pack up and leave and let them figure life out for themselves. Even my husband has a lot to figure out and I really don't like being around him.
I feel terrible that I just want to run away from all of them and do something for me. Wrong?
kellym
no its not wrong to want to run away and leave them to stew in the mess they have made of life, why should u be expected to bail them out of the chaos they created by themselves but as mothers we are conditioned to worry about it all from the cradle to the grave.
why shouldnt u be mad that life has robbed u of the things u thought u would be doing when the girls got this old, i know just how u feel its not any fun having to parent adults who should be out there doing things for themselves and its no fun when u have a man who is incapable of following the simple rules of a partnership, have u told them how u feel?
mayb u could just take one evening or afternoon to do the things u would like to do and see if that makes u feel better about life or explain to them that they might live at home but need to continue to contribute as adults ie make tea do the housework and even if they are working they need to take their turn at running things as they would if they didnt live with u
keep chattin hon
as always loving thoughts and positive vibes
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