I'm new to this site so I'm still trying to figure this all out. All I know is that I've been suffering from depression since I was a kid and now I'm 34 and it's the worst it's been ever. I'm so scared and lost. I don't know where to turn. I tried chat rooms but haven't been getting much out of it. It's hard to keep up with all the different conversations. I also started a blog thinking that might help. I just don't know what to do.
I take numerous medications and also see a therapist but nothing is working and I'm going downhill - fast. I used to have goals and could see a future but for quite a while now I don't see anything. I'm not suicidal because I would never want to hurt those that I love.
Given that fact makes it extremely hard for me to live each and every single day. How can I ever get better if I see nothing to look forward to. Being at home is making me worse - I'm scared I'll get to the point where I'll NEVER leave the house - I rarely do as it is. I panic when I have to... What kind of way is this to live? It's not living.
I wish I knew what to do or where to turn. I'm tired of getting up each day. I don't know what the point is.
Don't think like that! this site is amazing for support and has not failed me once. meds and your therapist are tools to help you. its like a baby trying to stand up, all they need is a little boost and your there. they are trying to make you focus on your life and why your living it. i rarely leave my house due to no car, but when i do, its to get out..just for me, and being friendly, i talk to people whome seem to be nice and lively. sometimes ill go to the mall just to window shop and give me inspooiration for hoome projectsd. youll make it threw everything! we are here for you, as well as i am.
Thank you Sami for responding - it makes me feel heard by someone who understands. I cried myself to sleep again last night while my husband just sat their feeling helpless because he had no idea what to say to me. I hope I’ll make it through - I just don’t have much hope right now.
Hey Fading,
I am so sorry about the way you are feeling right now, you seem to be really hurting. Have you communicated how bad things have gotten with your therapist, maybe changing or up'n dosage of meds may help and try to squeeze in extra appointments if that is possible.
Also you mentioned goals...how about just for now you make really small daily goals, like i wil go for a 20 minute walk today...it is still a goal and exercise can really help combat depression.
Sweetie don't lose hope, look how hard you are trying to keep yourself a float that shows great courage.
We are all here for you so let us know how you are.
Moongal! This is the third time that I’ve tried to respond to you but the site has been having problems and they didn’t post - hopefully this one will…
I want to thank you so much for responding to me - I truly appreciate it - it means a lot to know there are people out there who care and take the time to respond even though they are dealing with their own pain.
I’ve upped the number of sessions with my therapist to 2x per week and I think that will really help a lot. Plus I see my psychiatrist next week and I’m sure he’ll change the meds I’m on… although I don’t have faith that anything will work - I feel like my body is immune to all drugs that will help with my depression… I’ve been taking meds since I was 17 - so it’s frustrating…
I’ve been told to make daily goals by others too - but I just can’t muster up the energy to do the littlest things because I have absolutely no energy or motivation.
I’m actually proud of myself today. I MADE myself get out of the house - I had to pick up my medication anyway - but it felt good to be around other people - and it wasn’t that stressful. An old lady even asked me my advice on what candy she could send to her 2-4 year old grandchildren - It was almost as if God was planting her in my path - making me feel as though I was useful - so we chatted for a while and it made me feel good even if it was just talking about candy (She talked on more about her daughter or son? moving out west and about their new house - it’s almost like God knew we both needed someone to talk to
After that when I got home I mustered up even MORE energy and went grocery shopping with my husband - and ran into a good friend at the grocery store!
I have 2 ADORABLE cats that I love dearly - but even when I’m the most depressed I feel as though I’m neglecting them. I’d like to get a dog - but the two cats are a handful as it is…
Dear friend, the panic attacks are very unpleasant, to say the least. During that period, my friend told me to start telling myself that soon I will feel better and I follow her advice.Very slowly, the situation improved. Also you can take, during the day, few minutes to relax, meditate or pray, this way you are giving yourself a brake and, in the meantime, take things easy, it will help you to diminish the heaviness of your situation. Have faith, you are a wonderful person, you have compassion, because you did mention that you do not want to hurt people that you love. This is a very commendable statement. God bless you always.
Hey Fading,
i am delighted to here that you are feeling a little better, and yes, possible God did put each of you together to help each other in little ways. And make you realise how important you are.
Awww 2 cats, that's lovely:) I know when you're having a bad day even coming out of a room can feel like such an effort, but just think of all the love they are offering you and let that be the little bit of comfort to get you up and going, and when you are having a bad day try remember that.
I am so glad that you are having a good day hun, hope you have a great day tomorrow too.
im 13 and my bday is the 10th im depressed and scared that ill do something ill regret but it will be to late i can feel myself sliping down farther and farther every day
