Why? Because when I show even the slightest emotion, I get accused of “wanting pity.” This is wholly untrue. Therefore, I feel it is only necessary that I provide a clinical-sounding post. Our purpose here is to support and not judge. I do not type corrections on others’ posts since I am unable to see what they’ve done or accomplished. Even if my opinion is that what they’ve done isn’t satisfactory, I wasn’t there. I haven’t seen the work the individual has put in. I hope the same of others.
Facts:
- At this moment, I lack meaningful companionship and connection.
- I’ve found a single in person relationship in a decade.
- My facts are based solely on historical data and do not reflect my positive, loving view of myself.
- My age is nearing that of my father’s death.
- Although I may not die soon, I understand that I do not have forever.
- I am unable to read social cues. That affects my ability to find a relationship.
- I am good when I do find a relationship as most were good. The couple that weren’t I left because of it. <— Please read the last part again. That means I have self respect and do not tolerate abuse and/or constant, unneeded confrontation.
- I need no advice if it pertains to any “normal” method of finding someone since they all have failed my entire life. I am completely open to new methods that I have not explored. If it has already failed and I tell you, it’s NOT a dig against you. It’s me sharing information.
- I do not make excuses. Financial limitations actually can and do limit a person.
- Anything I say in opposition to advice is purely either a “been there done that many times” thing that has always failed in my case OR it is purely irrational OR I am stating a limitation OR is a limitation due to my suspected autism.
- If I state a limitation, it does not automatically mean I just “don’t try hard enough” or that I am “making excuses.” It is valid and will be treated as such for any type of meaningful reciprocation on here.
- I do not require anybody’s approval and my experience and issues are VALID.
I require assistance not misguided, irrational, assumed correct, corrective, or “tough love” assistance.
I understand that what I say sounds like a lot, but it really all just boils down to two simple ideas: I AM truthful, genuine, sincere, and I speak literally most of the time. If one can operate within those four constraints, there’s a 99.9% chance that they will have no issues with how I communicate nor misunderstand/misjudge my words.
If anyone judges me because of my writing of all of this, I will be unable to help with that. It’s just information to consider in a considerate way, or ignore. Either are valid and appreciated when it avoids excess judgment and/or drama.
That’s it. I’ve “found myself.” I “love myself.” And it’s been most of my life that I have been without meaningful human companionship not of my own doing.