Looking for support

Hello Group. I'll just get right to it. I have got to quit using but have been unsuccessful repeatedly. I'm hoping that reaching out to others for advice and support will inspire me. I guess I've been a fairly heavy user, how do you really categorize it? Addiction is addiction right? I've been using for a little over a year, I'd say on average about 3 times a week. I'm praying that I have finished my last "8 ball", which sadly enough only took less than 24 hours to get through. No sleep, no food, plenty of alcohol. I feel so ridiculous because the few days I'm clean I feel fabulous. My husband of 3 months and I get along great and have so much fun. So why in the world do I continue to use more?! I know I'll never get "that high" again and that I'll be miserable. I know this is destroying my life so why can't I just quit, just say no???? I know I am damaging my once healthy body and mind. I am truly feeling hopeless and disappointed that I cannot kick this. I'd love to share more with someone that is willing to support me. Please contact me. Desperation and shame go a long way.

The important thing is that you are seeing a need to stop, that is a HUGE step! Most people turn to drugs to deal with issues they feel are out of their control, that is why therapy as well as support are vital to getting clean, it helps you identify the triggers that lead you to use, as well as teach you strategies to help you abstain. Here is a toll free number to reach an addiction specialist who can answer any questions you might have, as well as discuss treatment options, 1-866-936-3121.

Feel free to message me anytime you need some support.