LoveHate relationship wpills

It's inspiring to see many ppl all trying to overcome the demons that at times fool us into thinking that the pills are the only thing we can count on, ever. I'm A newbie to this site and using an iTouch to type which may mean typos. Can hydrocodone addiction cause agorapobia? I find leaving the house very difficult, which is risking my job. I wish my story was more exciting, I hear ppl say they hate the pills and that they don't want anything to do w/ these little white pills. I don't hate the pills, I do hate the power they have over me. I can't stand to have to answer to anyone, I have worked very hard to be independent and now I miss out on alot b/c of addiction.

Hi Purple_rain, Are you still taking the hydrocodone? Is this a prescription med you are taking? For any questions you may have concerning it or any problems you are having I suggest consulting your doctor. Please feel free to continue to share with us. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))

Yes Blu, m down to 11 mgs/ daily.

Hi Purple_rain, I am glad to hear from you again. How are you doing today? Better I hope. You may also think about checking out NA for extra support face to face. Keep us posted on how you are doing. We are always here for you. ((((hugs))))

It says in the NA literature that "self centered fear is the root of our addiction" This was true for me and it sounds like it may be true for you as well. I used to wake up every morning with a painful knot in my stomach and sweats because I dreaded facing another day.
I have gone through doctors, therapists, and cults to find relief from the feelings I hated and the drugs I used to (attempt) control of them. It was only when I was sick and tired of being sick and tired and joined the Narcotics Anonymous program that I rid myself of all drugs, and lost much of the daily fear that consumed me. I'm still working and growing in the program. It keeps getting better one day at a time. Give yourself a break and try NA. It worked for me, I see no reason why it can't work for you.

Thx Avid, there's so many things I want to do, like finish grad school but I have to get off the stuff first. I appreciate your help. Will write more later.

Welcome to the board! I'm a huge prince fan, so I like the name.
Yes, addiction to pills can cause you to not want to leave your house. Why go out when all you need is right there in a bottle! Pills tell us what to do, when we can do it, for how long and how often. They own us.
However, there is hope! For 15 years I was abusing lethal amounts of opiates on a daily basis. Injecting, snorting, popping...anyway to get it in my system fast. I would run out, go through the horror of withdrawal and after a week or so and many vows to "never do that again", pick right up where I left off. Stopping was easy. It was staying stopped that I had trouble with.
For 35 years, I never had so much as a speeding ticket. My disease told me it was ok to start forging prescriptions and was arrested several times in 2005 for it. My world was turned upside-down because a little pill no bigger than a fingernail controlled me.
When I finally hit bottom on the 31st of January, 2008, I was averaging 100 pills a day and was very sick. Cold turkey was not an option for me so, I found a compassionate understanding doctor who detoxed me with suboxone for a few weeks and then started attending nightly AA meetings (here, NA is not as sober). I havent been dope sick since, I've regained the trust and respect of myself and loved ones and now give back to people who were like me when I hit my bottom; scared poop less and not knowing what comes next.
Recovery is a process and it takes as much time to heal as it does to become addicted. They key is an open mind and a willingness to do whatever it takes to get and stay sober.
So, what do you think you'd like to do to change your situation?

I feel so powerless most of the time. I go to counseling which seems to help. I have been tapering and I'm down to 10 mgs daily. I appreciate your story and support. I kno That getting off the pills is a must do. I just don't kno if I can get to where pills have no place in my life. I love Prince, he believes in tapping into creativity and that drugs only stifle a person's talents.

I've seen him in concerts many many times and no matter what you think of him, he is a musical genius.
No, you know there is a way to get to where you don't need pills, it's just scary making the first step. Even though it's basically impossible to scare an addict, let me ask you this from first hand experience: would you rather detox at home or in a jail cell with one toilet and 30 other people? Because if your addiction takes you to places and tells yup to do things you would normally never do to feed it, you won't have a choice.
Hang in there!