When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me." ~Erma Bombeck

Hi Cojo32, Welcome to . Do you go to any NA meetings? If not, then I suggest checking that out. You will find others like yourself and support and help. You can also find online NA meetings here . Take it one day at a time. Please keep coming back and letting us know how you are doing. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))

Thank you bluidkiti, I do go to meetings and I have a sponsor. I get like that every now and then. I have to let it out somewhere. I feel better right afterward and more motivated. I’m injoying not using. By the way I’m in a Transition House here in Atlanta, GA. I have 7 months clean and this is not my first party. I’m really here to make sure it’s my last. I don’t want to live like that anymore. I’m 54 and I just don’t think I have another run in me. I’m taking and using the Basic Text’s suggestions.

Thanks again and Have a bless day.