I left my husband in June of 2010. I had been with him since I was 19 I am now 32. I couldn't take his not wanting to work, his drinking and his anger that came along with it anymore. I was very unhappy for many years. We are still not officially divorced due to financial things. He moved away to another state. I felt when I left it would be the key to him getting help for his drinking, it didn't happen. I left him when I am still in love with him, but I couldn't deal anymore. I have moved on to a new relationship, but find myself missing my husband. I miss the adventurous/traveling together times so much. I can't stop comparing my new relationship to the one I had with my husband. I don't know how to move on from someone you still love, but know he will never change. I feel as though I am running in circles and it hurts so much. I don't know how to let go of someone completely after that many years of having them in your life. I am finding myself making excuses to not file the divorce papers, but know in my head I can't go back to him. Please, help, I feel crazy. It is affecting my life.
Any divorce or separation is a very difficult and complicated process, mainly after many years. Everything takes time and understanding. Sometimes, we do not give ourself time to reflect and accept the situation, and too fast we enter into another relationship. If one door is not closed, the other will not open. Take one step at the time, do not rush the outcome, it will happen at the right time. Say a prayer,ask God for guidance, and you will receive. God bless you.