About to trauma dump kinda hard rn, also sorry about bad grammer and spelling im not good with that
Mk so starting with the smaller/quicker shit he has said that “youre going to ruin Christmas for the whole family” because i had a meltdown on Christmas and was overstimulated, he has dismissed my own health concerns for example not being able to breathe, when i was limping because how painful it was to put any pressure on my foot (i basically had to beg to go to urgent care it get it checked out, it was all good tho), he also like, knows im neurodivergent and mental and physical illnesses run in the family(ex, adhd and bad circulatory system) he “forgets” or acts like im completely regular and typical. For example we were gonna go somewhere and for some reason i was like super sensitive so i was freaking out a bit and both my parents were asking if they could come in and every time i said no, but my dad walks in and says random shit and is like “all i need is an answer blah blah blah” idfk, and i kept saying stop (i go non-verbal during meltdowns) and this bitch really said “you stop” and that sent me over the edge because you cross MY boundaries and i tell YOU to Stop and you then tell ME to STOP??? i almost flipped out, him saying that almost got me yelling, i kinda did but i only said short and simple things.
But i pretty recently remembered the abuse he put me through when i was like 7 or so? And me knowing that has made me hate him so much more. At night when i would be upset cus idk i was a 7 y/o at night (i was and still am a baby lol) but i would like cry for my mom and my father would take me out of bed and pin me to the couch and spank me as i sobbed and screamed for my mother. She would just sit there. As i was abused, i dont blame her though, my father is 6’4 ft and pretty strong. My mom is still kinda bad but i give her a bit of a trauma pass cus when she gave me trauma she was drunk and or on drugs, which isnt good dont get me wrong but that messed her perception up, but my father HAD NO DAMN EXCUSE, NOTHING WAS FUCKING HIM UP. And i think i was the special case, i think i was the only person he did that to, i gotta talk to the Scooby gang later bout it all(my siblings)
My mom is a whole other thing, but night yall, im sleepy 