My day is almost over... I truly cannot believe what become of my husband and myself. The gap is getting farther and farther. I am not sure how much longer we are going to be together. I know the end is coming and I am sad. It seems that no matter what I do now... it is far from being together again. I pray to God to make me and the kids stronger so we can all endure the pain that he has brought to us because of another woman. I ask God sometimes if I have done such wrong thing for not only me to suffer but the kids as well. I wonder if he and the girl feels any guilt at all knowing I even sent her the photos of the kids. She does not have kids... I wonder if she will ever understand the pain she has brought to me and my kids. But I know someday I will have to forgive both her and my husband so I can sleep at peace in the night. All I ask God now is to keep my kids in his loving arms that their lives will not dwell on what happened to our family. My oldest daughter was crying again, she said she remembers all the small memory with her father. It kills me to hear her say such things but I muster some courage to show her I will be stronger everyday and so does she.
God bless and I hope that you can find the peace you are looking for. It is so sad to hear that your daughter is also suffering it really baffles the mind that they do not think it will affect the kids when they are acting so selfishly. Big Hug and prayers your way!
@KatrinaMarielle Have faith, stay strong. Sending you peace and prayers. I too always pray for inner peace and for strength for me and my kids. Give all your burdens to God and maybe that sorrow of ours will someday turn to joy. Someone actually told me in time this will pass and we will be going back to say "what the heck was I worrying about" But I just want that time to come SOON.
Keep hope and your faith. Remember God never leaves you even when you feel so alone. My counsellor told me not to give the om any thought when I wanted to reach out and tell him I forgive him...if they truly felt remorse or bad about what they have done they would ask for forgiveness. In their minds they rationalize everything and probably give themselves a pat on the back for what they have done because of their low self esteem. We just eventually have to forgive them in our own hearts because that is what Jesus teaches us to do and it will help rid us of that resentment and bitterness. Stay strong...reading the Pslams helped me through those early days.
I wish I could say something, anything, comforting at this point. I was in a failed marriage once, but with no kids. So I can't even imagine. Although I do believe in God, I have no faith left myself. I can't even tell you that I believe things happen for a reason or that this world isn't just one big, meaningless sphere spinning out of control in space that simply leave some of us in its path of ultimate destruction earlier than others.
But just know I wish nothing but better days for you and that you find the peace and love you deserve. I'm sorry you are going through this.