When I close my eyes I see colors and people or outlines of people and every other second they change colors like neon colors then when I open my eyes the colors are still there and just the other day my eyes were like a smoke screen looked like little white beads were covering my eyes like shallow white beads this happens a lot which is why I like to close my eyes.
Also lately I find myself fantasizing a whole lot about people dying or me dying and it just kinda makes me laugh I dont know why, it doesnt really even bother me in the slightest.
Hi Shanese, Happy New Year! How are you doing? Have you talked to a therapist or your doctor about this? Is there a reason why you are having these thoughts of dying, does something trigger these thoughts in particular?
Happy New Year to you as well.
I talked with my therapist yesterday and its just me being depressed for the most part. Thanks for asking:)
I am so happy that you know the root of the cause. Are you working through your depression and feeling any better than before?
I have been feeling tons better these days just finding more things to do with my time now. Thanks For asking 
Hi Honey Bee! Happy Monday! I am so happy to hear that you've been feeling better, how are you doing today? Any updates?
Hi I have been feeling much better these days not so depressed. My meds and everything else ae pretty much the same thanks for asking. Happy Tuesday !
Good to hear Honey Bee
I have been doing well too , not depressed all the time thankfully
It comes and goes
Honey Bee, thanks so much for the update, I am so happy to hear that you are feeling better and not depressed. That's so wonderful! Please keep us up-to-date on how you're doing. Have a beautiful day!
