My first day of operation gain weight for a baby

So my ultimate goal in getting healthy and gaining weight is the ability to have a baby. I am scared shitless, yet I know that I am soooooo wanting to pass this because my husband and I are ready to take on the lifelong job of being parents. Now I know that I can't take care of a baby if I can't take care of myself...that would just be sellfish. So this is why I have started on the path to gain some weight, which hopefully I can do. If I can do this....then I can think about being a parent. I have tried fertility methods but stopped because if I was to get pregnant, I would still be underweight and unhealthy and maybe not ready to accept a changing body. So I need to add weight first naturally and accept me for who I am, despite my size. So today's meals for far

Breakfast:
toast with jam and a bunch (trying not to measure!!!!) of mixed berried - strawberries, raspberries, blueberries, and blackberries

Snack:
Handful of crackers, half a granola bar, half a peach

Lunch:
Bowl of grilled vegetables, a clementine, a few rice crackers, and half a sugar cookie (and a real fruit gummi!)

Hopefully this continues....mind you looking at this I realize that I have to stop with this whole half thingy. I tend to pick at foods, take bites or halfs, but not actually eat the whole thing!

Wish me luck for the rest of the day!

God bless you for trying to live healthy, it is already a step forward. Have faith and you will achieve your dream. Wishing you Happy New Year.

Thanks :) I really appreciate your support! I am trying everything I can to be healthy!

What about dinner young lady? Hmmmmm ;)

I actually managed a bowl of homemade turkey chili (I love cooking!!) and a salad. For dessert I had a piece of chocolate! I was quite impressed with my day! In the afternoon I even had some moe rice cakes and a slice of ham!! Day one = a success!

Woooohoooo I'm very proud of you, keep it up!