My heart feels like it is literally breaking. I am struggling so much, and it's always worse at night. I obsess over everything. People tell me I need to grow up and get over the past and stop comparing and focusing so much on my flaws.. Then I obsess over what people think. I miss my daughter. I have never been on drugs or been a party girl but because of my severe depression she is with her dad... I struggle with that all time. I don't understand why I still love him so much. He has done so much to purposefully hurt me but he makes me feel like I was the one who screwed up all the time and never treated him right. I feel like ever since we broke up I've been on a downward spiral. I just feel so worthless and so unworthy of love.. I've made too many mistakes. I'm so lonely but I crave all the wrong company and listening ears. I just don't know how to deal with the rejection from so many people in my life. I don't want another night of suicide thoughts. I just want to heal. Somehow.
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You just described how I feel. I been feeling like this for soo long.
I'm glad someone can relate to how i feel but I hate that we both are struggling.
Yes, it's nice to know I'm not the only one. I've bee feeling like this for years and idk what's next.
I hope you can overcome it. I hope we both can. I know how hard it is...
It is hard but not impossible. I hope we can both overcome it.
Thank you. That's really good advice.